more is possible :) (the {possible} origins of the name ‘creuynni’)

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the name creuynni that i use, is simply a name that i wrote as an email address some years ago. i’m not sure where the idea came from, i just remember trying lots of different words and names, but they all were ‘taken’…i tried ‘creuynni’….and well, that wasn’t taken….

though it was just ‘random’ words, i like them – creu in cymraeg is ‘creating’ and ynni – ‘energy’, so ‘creating energy’ – a little tease at some scientists theory at the time of how energy cannot be created yet the universe was created from nothing and yet somehow is also infinitely expanding….. (there are new theories to this now 🙂 )

plus i like how it sounds like ‘crayon’ 😉 also a source of creativity for some hehe.

..then when using this e-mail address, festival and other event organisers for some reason took that to be my surname, listing me as katie creuynni. i found i liked that.. and it became my professional name: www.facebook.com/Creuynni .

then some years later – the simplicity increased in complexity and making sense-ity.
i received a pure energywork session where…possibly these ‘random’ words came from…at least they made more sense in that context….
common to the sessions where you let go of the past, i can’t remember what it was on – what trauma/wound/story i was releasing…
but i remember the gift…. what that old stuff transformed into – what came in the place of all i released – what was revealed once that imprint/blockage was cleared…..
as commonly happens in sessions – an insight, experience, ‘download’, ‘healing piece’ – so many names given for this – came in it’s place.

this ‘gift’ i felt – this experience – was one of feeling even more that connection to that ‘creating energy’….the inner feeling and experience of being ‘creation’ ‘creating energy’ experiencing life as ourselves….that all of us ..we are the creator…the creating energy 😉


as i did so, i found my hands moving, as i held them out – a little like the picture above, though as if i had those chinese medicine balls in my hands –
and as can occur when doing this….words came with this movement…
and these words? ‘creu ynni’…
these words encompassing what i was feeling….that power of creating energy…

that creating energy that we do have here as we create furniture, homes, technologies, art, music, sculptures, structures, pictures in the sand….
felt that empower even more so…

and from that…..also came the words (and feeling)

‘more is possible’ 🙂

the reminder that ‘more is possible’
of all that we choose to create and co-create
more is possible
that ‘more’ we create – well that inherently and integrally is up to us… so many possibilities…
and in each moment…
what is it that we are choosing to create?
as more is possible 🙂

so the word creuynni is also now, some years later… a lovely reminder of that moment, where i felt that…of us being the ‘creuynni’, the creating energy….
and the wonderful feeling of ‘more is possible’

and i like that it makes sense too many years ago…many of us took on our professions name as our name – like ‘smith’ for blacksmiths etc….
a lot of what i work with, people call ‘energy’ or ‘energywork’ or ‘energy medicine’ that can be transformative, empowering, often feeling like creating the new…or revealing the what feels new…in each moment
disclaimer: ok everything is energy…all vibrating energy from the hardest wall to the almost intangible when in motion electromagnetic energy  – it seems so we all do…from the builder to the road repairer to the artist to the street-cleaner to the gardener- all working with energy
still….fits also for me

and TheN a year later or so again…. something else made it fit a bit more… in  a masters class – where we connected with with..how can i word  this… our ‘higher selves’? that healed, empowered part of ourselves that does have so much even more access to universal wisdom.. some call ‘divine’ selves though could argue that if we are to use that language – if we are all ‘creator’ experiencing as ourselves, then we all are ‘divine’ anyway – yet i transgress….
when i did so… i felt that connection to this healed empowered self…of who i am becoming…maybe even who i have came here more to be…
such a deep and conscious connection and commitment to this growing connection..
it kinda felt like a marriage to self
so felt too… a little like a married name..to myself…
well… who else am i going to get married too 😉

then some years later again… something else resonated too…
a journey…..of Ceridwen’s daughter – who i was told in this journey to the universal subconscious was also lady of the lake….
so much of this work can be literal, or mythical….i’m just open to what is…and i just loved that experience….
i didn’t even think there was any mention of her in the texts…. that this was just an added part of the myth not known….
however i mentioned this to a wise storyteller and i was told that Ceridwen’s daughter is mentioned in the texts…albeit very  briefly…which is why many of the storytellers who have told me that tale of taliesin may not have mentioned her i guess….
and not only that she is in the stories has a very similar sounding name in the texts -‘Creirwy’.
so creuynni is also a little reminder of that deeper connection than i thought i had to those myths and tales….

so in short – common to me – creuynni comes from a number of places and experiences…an interweaving of experiences, stories, myths…. and not in chronicological order…possibly the cause coming a few years after the effect…..wibbly wobbly timey wimey….

“people assume that time is a strict progression of cause to effect, but actually from a non-linear, non-subjective viewpoint – it’s more like a big ball of wibbly wobbly… time-y wimey… stuff.” (quote from doctor who, ‘don’t blink’ episode)

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