mindfulness in actions

choosing which books to let go of

I have some reminders as i read through

it’s great to notice the triggers so we can clear them

but when triggered and still working out what they are

how to deal with them

how to observe them

how to notice what they are

and have some heartfullness in actions and communications 

can include
when triggered

before splatting over others

taking a moment 

to connect

to connect with self

to connect with the body

what is it feeling?

what is it speaking

to you?
taking some time 

to connect with our heart 

with our breathing

to connect with our feelings 

what are your feelings?
to connect with our intentions

what are your intentions when you go to speak now?
to connect with your needs

what do you need in this moment?

can we step into a no fault zone?

seeing everyone has their reasons ?
can we step into that place of abundance

where there is a win-win?
if involving another

can we see what their feelings are?

what are their intentions?

what are their needs?
can we observe

and state our observations

free from judgement?
can we express ourselves this way?
when we see a behaviour – what is it that triggers? what are the fears? what are the assumptions?

are they true?

what does that say about you?

what do you do? what does is it remind you of?

what can you own?
and how can you be now?
inspired by (and for more info and techniques can read) respectful parents, respectful kids by hart and hooson, nvc by rosenberg, what to do when kids push your buttons and more)

you do it to yourself?

‘you do it to yourself, you do’

well… if we are
‘all one’
{as current (and some ancient) theories and experiences suggest }
then
does it follow that
all
that is happening to us
right now
in our worlds –
we
are doing it to ourselves?

we may point the finger at others
but if we are all one
surely
those others
are us too?

why we are doing this to ourselves
what we can do to change this
and how much of this we can change
are more questions

but
as i released myself
from at least some of my holding myself back
some of my self-restrictions
some of my self-obstructions
from my being my ‘healed’ me
i saw images
of releasing back generations
those holds
of self-constrictions
freeing myself in that now
and ‘myself’ then
as i let them go

and releasing this image too
as i step into the new
states and ways of being

as i step further in the journey
to self-discovery, self-empowerment,
connection to self, the earth and others
and other true gems
like many of us seem to be travelling
as we learn and grow
as we dig into and seeds in our soul sow
as we connect to our physical
as we fly with the energetic
as we play with our minds
as we explore and work with our environments

and the journey
all this travelling
gives gifts
maybe at least as much as the destination will

and every step is a destination
just as every step is a journey
and a new beginning

and that feeling
that experiencing
that somehow
though we are individuals co-creating our reality
we are also all one creating our reality
that we do it to ourselves
that ‘they’ doing ‘that’ to us
are us…
(doing it to themselves)
i’m not sure why
this part-taking of self-responsibility
for me
gives some reassuring quality
some comfort
some empowering
some
‘i made this’
‘i did this’

i guess it brings with it the opportunity
to step back and look at the situation maybe a little more objectively
the chance of a possibility
of some understanding
of asking
‘why is that part of me doing this right now’
that connection
perhaps enhancing the ability
for that question to be answered in some way

maybe this self-responsibiity
can give some kind of reason
for it happening
why else would i/us create this to happen this way?

and even more possibiility
for it changing
for
if we created it in the first place
however short or long time ago
then we surely can create something else in its place
we can create more than what we currently know
(and do regularly 😉 )

if
that it
it is
‘all us’
if
‘it’s all me’

and this brings with it many more wishes for self-healing
surely there is no need now for suffering…
we can and do also learn from inner peace and harmony living?
this brings with this more wishes for learning, growing, evolving
to who we are becoming many years from now
and bringing this into the now
and harmony seems to be coming more and more in so many places anyhow

much appreciation for all the lessons
and
for all those who are
‘another part of me’

i am another part of you

how can i feel fulfilled now? …. what can i do in order to feel fulfilled now?

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(photo: ‘catching rainbows’ by creuynni )

so much of this inner personal work…
this accessing our inner wisdom….our beautiful…deep worlds of inner wisdom…
this connection
this reception…receptivity..this listening and finding answers…
comes and can come from asking questions…
and listening for those answers…
…answers from within…
….and from the worlds…the universe…around us…

and the questions i am with today are based on root needs….
….and routes to fufil these root needs

and these questions….they are….it is:

how can i feel fulfilled now?
what can i do to feel fulfilled now?

and now…..?
and now?

how many ways can we fufil ourselves?

what ways can we choose to do so?

which ways can we choose to do so?

which ways of feeling self-fufilled are most beneficial to ourselves, our inner worlds…and our worlds around us?

what can i do today to feel self-fufilled that is beneficial to myself, my inner world and/or the world around me?

and there are so many answers….
so many routes i can take
to meet this root feeling….
this root wish…
may i choose these beneficial ways…
and act on these root feelings of needs
with munay, with love, with ease and grace, with tangnefedd…with inner peace….harmony and well being

much love ~ caru

(with much appreciation for jamie catto’s shadow workshop in chester today that assisted the triggering of this particular question to add to the fold 😉 )

letting go of old stories….

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so…
….as many of us drop our old stories…
…our old ways of being…
…of behaving…

so that we can step into the new…
new consciously co-created tales, adventures…
of our conscious and perhaps joyful making…

can we also drop
the stories we have about other people…
so our energy isn’t caught up in their old stories too…

…including those who are still with us…and those who have already transitioned….

like be-elzebub
to take one example
whose stories surrounding him inspired this post
say he did exist…
that he existed…
and that stories were built up around him,
up and around,
and built up around him…
making a mould around him….
so detailed that the stories have a  life of their own….
how useful is it
to keep perpetuating that story…
that interpretation… that projection…
that mud of seeing clearly as mud about another
that judgement…that affrontation….
it’s not beneficial to you
it’s not beneficial to me
if it is in our awareness
then surely it is in
our energy

how about we  let him step away…
start creating his new story…….
each moment a new moment where new can be created

can.

we.

let.

it.

go?

and who elses story have you built up for them…
around them…
splatted that mud of your projections, objections, connections, subjections around them…
can you also let those go?
those stories you have surrounding your mum? your brothers? your sisters? your friends from school?
the politician? the celebrity?
the father? the grandparent?
that person down the road?
your partner?
the woman who forgot your name?
the man who asked you if you’d like to go for a drink?
the lady that pushed in front of you in the queue?
the boy that forgot you?

can you let the story you have built up around them go?
rather than enclosing them in a mud-slung fest over that other person…
that could rebound onto us…
and perpetuate us participating in that old story….
can you allow them to be free….
can you allow yourself to be free?
with this?

and if so? with how many people can we do this with?
this letting go…. of judgement….of story…..
this no longer holding them as something….
this letting go ….to give and receive freeing…..
evolving, learning….being….anew…
taking them as they are now
in each moment…
(if we choose to have them in our moments)
or letting them be free
away from us
(if we choose to not have them in our moments…)

and in each moment
as we drop the old stories…
of ourselves…
of others…

what new can we co-create?
what new can we create?

what do you choose now?

and now?

and how about now? x

much love. llawer o munay x efo caru x

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coming from a land called love…

if we come from a place of love

if
day by day, night by night,
we continue to come from a place of love

where would that be?
where would we be?
how would we act?
what would be create
how would we behave?
what would we say?
how would we feel?
being love?
if ‘they’
were
being love
would they act that way?

how would they act?
what would they create
how would they behave?
what would they say?
how would they feel?

and how much of this coming from a place of love
do we wish to bring in
to this lagoon of the possibilities
that are our lives here…
of the what is possible
with this being love

and peace

and love

and homework

my homework is
more and more
to be coming from love

to notice where and when i am coming from love
and where i can come from love

asking myself at times
what would love do now? in this situation?
and sometimes
where i feel i can….
where i feel ready…
where i manage it…
going with
this what love would do now…
in this situation…
and
this sometimes
maybe increasing it to moretimes
and more and more so

being love

the
being
love.

i loves it 😉

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sharing our gifts ~ air haywarikuy

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sharing our gifts air haywarikuy

happy (belated) beltaine 🙂

beltaine is a beautiful time 🙂 to me, a time of celebrating creativity, life. in cymru leaves are growing from seeds planted, blossoms appearing on many trees and the first beginnings of many fruits appearing.

this air haywarikuy was co-created to offer to our worlds around us our creative gifts….a way of putting forward the offer of our gifts that we wish to share….to say ‘I’m up for offering this’…and inviting in opportunities to share these gifts with those that wish to receive them…to those we feel happy to share them with…..
we did this with the creativity celebrations of beltaine…the growing first leaves of the seeds planted, the flowers and blossoms…the fruits beginning to form….it can be done anytime however…and can be adapted, especially by following your heart….this is a framework…to move around within and around if choose….and can also be a springboard to spring into something new….

you may like to do this next to a fire, particularly if working this at beltaine….it can also be created other places outdoors and indoors too…
the offers, wishes, intentions and appreciations can be done silently and/or out loud…however is felt to do…

ingredients

petals (lots to pick up from the floor and shaken from the blossoming trees in spring),
leaves (any kind, but particularly smaller, lighter ones)
seeds (any kind, but particularly smaller lighter ones)

a piece of cloth, a good size for you/your group…

process…

beginning with opening sacred space….

beginning with a layer of k’intus
(we used ‘ready made k’intus’ – the ‘all one-ness’ of 3 leaved clovers for this, but any combination of 3 leaves are great ;).
…in these we blew in (with our breath informing the leaves) our intention for this haywarikuy…. to offer our gifts to the worlds around us….  then placing them on the cloth….this is like a basket holding our dreams and wishes for this haywarikuy….

then a layer for the annwfn…our inner worlds…the world of our subconscious….the worlds of our inner selves….
blowing into petals, light leaves and seeds etc….our offers of the gifts we wish to share/continue sharing from our inner world…our innerselves….  and for our inner world…our innerselves….

then a layer for what some call the ‘kay pacha’ ‘middle world’….the physical reality around us…. and blowing into these light nature materials our offers of the gifts we wish to share/continue sharing in this world…. these can be practical skills, they can be abstract parts of ourselves…they can be abilities…abilities that we have, and abilities we wish to continue developing….however you feel….
then a layer for our ‘hanan pacha’, what some call the ‘upper world’…that world beyond time….of the energetic… connected to our futures…to  who we are becoming…and also timeless… connected to our ‘divine’ selves….tho what some call ‘divinity’ i feel, can be found in all worlds… the worlds they say of imagination and inspiration….
…..in this layer… blowing in our offers of the gifts we wish to share/continue sharing for our upper worlds…. and from our upper worlds…..

a layer then, if choose to do so, of appreciation of the gifts we have within us.
if in a group, particularly one familiar with each other, one by one, each individual can blow in appreciation of the gifts they have into a chosen light nature material, then pass it round the circle for others in the group to blow in the gifts that they love and appreciate about that person.

{while what we see in others can be just a projection of our inner selves….and what we say about others may be ourselves….the person who we are appreciating the gifts of can choose whether to accept these as themselves…. if it is said out loud and the individual being appreciated feels a ‘glow’ or feel recognition of self….it is suggested that that is an indication that it is themselves too 😉 } x

then a kintu (again we used a kintu of three leaves that were joined together already…from a tree) blowing in appreciation of the gifts of the world around us….and passing that around the circle…

when ready….taking a moment to see the haywarikuy as it is….
maybe looking at it from the physical level….the arrangement of petals, leaves and seeds….
then the level of story, emotions….the stories around those petals leaves and seeds….
and the level of  ‘hummingbird’, of the symbolic…of the epic adventure that this haywarikuy represents/is part of…
and the level of the energetic….where everything is energy J

then when ready folding the cloth into a parcel, which then can be brought from head to toe over the body (front and back, left and right sides), infusing the energy field with these beautiful wishes and offers and intentions and gifts…. if in a group this can be done clockwise in a circle, each person doing this for the person next to them.

before gently unwrapping the haywarikuy on the ground….
in a group this is easier…but also possible for an individual to do themselves J
in a group…everyone holds the edge of the cloth…kinda like a parachute…kinda like grabbing the hands and legs of someone whose birthday it is before throwing them into the air…
and then when ready….bringing the cloth quickly up….so the contents are given into the air…. 🙂
enjoyment of any petals, light leaves like confetti that come back to earth and over you kinda like confetti after being given to air is also optional 😉

much love ~ muchos munay ~ cariad mawr 🙂

diolch i ti am dy anrhegion di…. thank you for the gifts you bring to this world…

x

cultivating balance…inner and outer…

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this is a process, working with ‘nature painting’ (also known as ‘sandpainting’), working with natural materials to bring out of us what is within our field…and placing it out there…onto earth…for it to be seen….for it to be heard….and for to be able to listen…and see maybe the bigger picture as well as the smaller detail 😉

this one works with the shape of the vesica pisis (like above), the intention being to cultivate balance….this is also known as yanantin in peru..

with this we put in each side what feels out of balance for us…in us and/or in our lives… what makes us feel out of balance…and what things seem opposite to eachother….seeing if and/or how they balance….

this is especially for equinox time…that balance of night and day….but can be done anytime….

ingredients ~ sticks, natural compostable materials e.g. leaves, petals, nuts, fruits….

process~

beginning with opening sacred space

we set our intention for this process….

and lay out on the floor some sticks in to circles that interweave…as in the vesica piscis…..
(blowing into these sticks our intention for these sticks…to hold our journey of inner an outer balance that will be laid here within them)

choosing one side of the vesica piscis…..to represent one side…..and the other side…..

and then you can blow into chosen twigs, leaves, petals etc the essence~energies of these that are within you…informing these natural materials with your breath what you wish to place in this painting…the ‘opposites’ in your life… and in yourself…and the world around you….
…..and place them into the part of the circle that represents what you regard it as….
it is hard to find names… but one side (i.e. the part of one circle that does not overlap with the other), may be more things you feel ‘positive’ about….the part of the other circle that does not overlap you may put things that you do not feel ‘positive’ about…*
(the suggestion here is to leave the middle interwoven part empty…that will come part of the process later)


(it can be lovely to do this in a group to be able to, when choose to..hear what is being put in…both being sacred witness to eachothers work…and inspiration of more which could be put in).

then when you feel ready….you can get up and try standing on each side..see how each side of those opposites feel…..maybe noticing how you feel in the body, maybe closing eyes and seeing if images come to mind…

then when experimented with this…when feel ready… you can try standing in the middle….
and see how this feels…
what images come to mind?
any sounds?
how does the body feel?
is there any way the body wishes to move? what is the movement?
are there any words that come?

and you can take a moment….to feel how it feels
~physically…at the physical level what is happening… also known as perceiving from the base energy centre or ‘serpent’ level….

and how it feels
~emotionally….what are the stories occurring and happening here…what is happening with the mind and emotions here… also known as seeing through the sacral energy centre…through the eyes of ‘jaguar’ archetype…..how does it feel?

and how it feels~
~at a ‘soul’ level…at the level of journey, symbolic, myth/fairy tale and adventure…. seeing through the third eye energy centre…through the eyes of ‘hummingbird’ archetype…..how does this feel?
are there any words, images? movements here

and how this feels
at the energetic…..’9th’ energy centre high above the energy field….the eyes of eagle archetype…where all is seen as it is….energy…..
and how it feels here…any movements, images, words….

and then how it feels in the body…where you are now… again are there any movement that your body can make to remind yourself of this learning, this way of being… any images that can remind you?

then when ready step out….
and gather up the nature painting…. and give the painting with appreciation to earth, fire or water (i.e scatter it on the earth, put it on a fire or place it in stream or sea or other water)

you can allow that to flow away….with appreciation…

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to come and do this at a workshops together (you can do this on own or your own group too but it is lovely to be held by another too) , or if you have any questions, please feel free to get in contact… 🙂

…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………*extra note
this is your picture…. flowing from you… but to give examples if you wish to use them to spring board.for what you ‘blow in’ to the natural materials……
you maybe might
~blow into a leaf a recurring situation in your life that you are not happy about….and placing that in one side…. then maybe blowing into another leaf the opposite of that…times when that doesn’t happen…where something actually you like that is the opposite happens….

~maybe blowing in an aspect of yourself you don’t like, then blowing in the opposite of that that you can also be sometimes….

….and there are many more examples you can find to come in this way…

…..you might even blow in two things that you regard as opposites e.g. dark and light, male and female…. feel what you wish to do with these…which side to put them on….or maybe put them on both… e.g. wounded masculine on one said, and healed masculine on the other side.

..with all of these…feel free to follow yourself and your heart on this…..and see happens….

munay x

and…breathe…..planting seeds…

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one of the things i love about this work is that so often it is like planting seeds….

and the seeds grow….

so i may receive a session,  or do a healing piece another way….and i may feel some instant results..
but those results also they grow…

sometimes they grow quickly…like radishes…
sometimes they seem they are put in as full plants straight away they grow so quick…..quicker than radishes even 😉

….other times…they take their time…to grow the first leaves…the plant…the tree….the fruits…over days, weeks and months even a beautiful steady grow….
and whether it is fast
or it is slow
i find it can be
…..so beautiful

like when i received one session..
and i noticed that all of a sudden i was breathing easily from my belly again…
like i’d tried to do that for a long time before on advice from others, but only had lasted a few seconds before forgetting and going back to non-belly breathing….
so to suddenly come to it effortlessly was great…
though it didn’t happen that i was always breathing from my belly at first..
but the amounts i found myself doing so increased and increased….
and now i noticed it is so much of the time i am…gentle, ease of breathing from the belly…
so beautiful to be breathing easily and deeply from the centre
after so many years of trying mechanically, logically…
after being told by various teachers this was the way to breathe…and agreeing….
suddenly a seed is planted and now it is bearing fruit….fruit after fruit 🙂

and that is just one example…
but it is one i am reminded of now as i notice my breath…coming from deep within me
and flowing….naturally…..

‘blessed to be’ eh? blessed be 😉

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munay haywarikuy :) (happy munay day)

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this haywarikuy is created for days dedicated to love like valentines day and st. dwynwens day… especially as valentines day is on a full moon this year…. though can be worked with any day….working with the idea of these days to being as reminders to honour munay…that universal love…. for our friends and family, for the world…and ourselves too….
(there is more about the meaning of munay here: munay)

 following a layout of haywarikuy (some words on this here: haywarikuy), this time working with the (permeable) framework of annwfn ~ inner world, outer ‘middle’ world ~ kay pacha and ‘upper’ world ~ hanaq pacha.
 
 this is written as an individual haywarikuy…. making our own parcel to ourselves as well as the earth…to cultivate the munay inner love within ourselves….and appreciate ourselves and our relationship with the world around us
…and it can easily be adapted to be done as a couple….or group too…voicing and appreciated the love between and within and without as a couple or group for each other 🙂

beginning with opening sacred spacethen you might like to start with a connecting with life force energies exercise…to remind us of what it is that we are..and are part of and/or a stillness meditation…feeling that connection to yourself…and to your inner sage….
 
ingredients…

~leaves, petals, seeds, grains…compostable materials, fruit juices even…that can represent aspects of munay shared here….
~piece of paper….folded into 9 squares…

process…

opening out the paper, ready to lay the ingredients on….
beginning with a layer of k’intus…blowing into them your intention for the haywarikuy….to give thanks and wishes of munay….to give appreciation for the gift of life and love within us and around us…  and placing them on the paper….

also here we can blow in general love and appreciation for…for self, others, the worlds around us…

then focusing on the inner world…. blow it a leaf, petal or similar ingredient something you love about your ‘inner world’…about yourself….
 this could be something you appreciate and have love for within yourself….maybe beautiful thoughts you find yourselves thinking sometimes…it may be the heart felt skills that come from within…. the work that you do for yourself… and do this as many times as you like with different leaves/petals/natural materials and appreciations…
you may wish to blow in here too your wishes and plans of how to nurture and grow your inner self…to cultivate that munay within and for yourself….

when you’re ready,  , focusing this time with the munay, appreciation and wishes for that is within the kaypacha…the middle world…the world that we live in in this physical reality…blowing into leaves, petals, seeds and similar, love and appreciation for what it is you bring to your world around you that benefits the world around you…others and yourself…you can use the words of others to assist you…lovely things that others have said about you…
and you can blow in here too….the things you love about living in the kaypacha….the middle world…. you may wish to blow in the munay-love you have for the earth….and for others in your world…in your community….in your life….all the wonderful things about this world….the people…the nature….the inspirations and projects around that you feel munay for….whether it is stories from your lives or those you hear of others… what it is you feel brings love, and connects to well to love…
and you may wish to blow in here too your wishes and plans cultivating more feelings of munay in the kaypacha… our physical world here….

then, when you feel ready, you can work with the hanaqpacha….the upper world…the world beyond the one we see…connected even more with infinity an our closeness with our divinity… this time blowing into the natural materials your love and appreciation of who you are becoming…. and of our inspiration and imagination, visualisation and energy that comes from here that assists us shape this world…when we bring ideas into fruitions….
you might like to blow in the love and appreciation of experiences you may have had with this world if you’ve had them….  you might like to blow in your munay and love and appreciation for ‘source’, creating energy, connecting, flowing and ‘awen’ energy that so many people have so many different names for… that is also part of who we are …..
and you may wish to blow in here too your appreciation and wishes in relation to this world…

then if you choose, you can sing, play a drum with this  haywarikuy bringing in these energies through sound as well as breath….

and you can take a moment to look at the haywarikuy you have made….feel its energy… notice anything there is to notice….

then when you are ready, if you wish then you can wrap up this haywarikuy in the paper… making a parcel.

if in a group, you can put the parcels together…

and you can, in pairs assist the other by infusing our energy fields with these appreciations and honourings…and of the love of self and of the world around us, bringing the haywarikuy from the crown to the feet, front, and back…. clearing….and infusing….
you can also do this to yourself down each side of your body.

then, when ready you can give this haywarikuy to water…. to  earth or to fire…. it is a lovely one to give to water i feel this is….as we find our flow…. and feel our connection to the ‘awen’…. the energy where creating energy flows….

with munay x

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stillness within energy centres meditation exercise

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working with some of the energy centres in the body…also known as ‘chakras’, ‘nawi’s’, and ‘gates’ to promote inner stillness and inner peace…. allowing this to reverberate out from these centres through our energetic and physical body…

….finding a comfortable place to sit, stand or even lay down.
you can find a moment to feel stillness within you.
////and to feel movement within stillness within you.
you might notice your breath, with your abdomen moving in and out, with your breath moving up and down the body…in and out.
….allowing, if you choose, an image to form within closed eyes…
an image of still water…perhaps a still lake… that is calm…and reflects all that is around it…
….and allowing that stillness to reverberate around your body.
you can allow thoughts to drift in and drift out….
you can, if you choose observe them, and listen to what comes from within in this exercise, before letting that too go….
as you then come back to that image and feeling of that still, reflecting lake or other still, reflecting waters…

then, in time
you can bring your attention to the sacral energy centre/chakra/nawi, about three finger widths below the navel ‘button’, putting your two hands either side of the centre,notice how that centre feels.
if you could imagine that energy centre as flowing water, what is the water like?
if it is ‘choppy’ and wavey, with your intention, if you choose, you can soothe and calm these waters, so they too form a calm movement in stillness,
you may find the water begins to flow smoothly in and out with the breath….

then, when you feel and breathe with this stillness, you can, if you choose, open your hands out to your sides…and with this movement, bringing this inner stillness out though your body to the edge (and perhaps reverberating beyond) of your outstretched hands/energy field…

you can repeat this process with the heart energy centre (about mid-point of chest at heart level)…
and with the ‘third eye’ energy centre (about mid point of forehead, just above the brows). feeling the waves, the stillness, and allowing with your hands that stillness to reverberate outwards….. asserting yourself, your stillness…within yourself…change can happen from the inside…out….

then coming back to that overall image of the stillness of a lake…that reflection…..

(for a slightly longer process you could work with all the 7-8 ‘main’ central energy centres, more information on these are: here)