one healing journey…

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journey stars

my journey has been one of many experiences….i seem to have been more than gently nudged into to the direction of this work along the years until i finally found what i was looking for (to paraphrase U2 😉 ….finally found what i didn’t even know i was looking for even…

i seem to have walked at least three of the common types of paths to get to this place of working with this work, and though they are different, they are also interwoven in some ways…supporting eachother…nudging me along… for me, they are the paths of the “wounded healer” –  in learning to heal the self, learning how to assist others to heal themselves; the paths where the individual has experienced near death experiences – leading to insights/shifts/changes within themselves; and the paths where the individual has received an ‘awakening’ as some people call it – basically an awakening of insights and realisations. i guess the little awakenings/insights on the way since a young age and an interest in this work once i found it are two other common paths…so make that at least 5 😉

now, i work with consciously choosing our own destinies, but i guess, in hindsight, that could be a big hint to me, that even when i went off track in my life, something in me wanted to come to this kind of work…

while, if in a culture that have existed in this country a few thousand years or so ago, someone might have picked up on this, and led me to this work earlier…i didn’t know enough myself to realise this….
so rather than the easier road (which would have been nice), i took the hard roads and the long cuts…so it’s taken me a while to get here…
…this long road means though that there is so many examples and sharings i can give of this healing journey, if anyone reading this would like even more detail, to learn what happened to me, to compare with their experiences etc, it can be hard to know how much to share or how to start…

if you don't get lost there's a chance you may never be found “if you don’t get lost there’s a chance you may never be found”
(painting and words by ann bridges)

maybe i’ll start with part of the ‘wounded healer’ path to self-healing and wellbeing…

at the age of about 14? 15? (i’m not too good with this measuring time business) i had one illness, which after finding alcohol etc was not the best answer, used the logic of my mind to overcome it and began enjoying life again…
however later illness occurred so deep within the physical that even the amazing power of the mind could not heal it…
the doctors couldn’t help me, told me i wouldn’t get better, one said i would just get worse… i was housebound for 99% of my time, bedbound for about 98% of that time with nerve pain that wracked my body. the painkillers the doctors gave me would take the edge of the pain, but only the edge…and once i built up a tolerance to them and was on maximum dose, well…
i tried so many things to help, but they either didn’t help, or the help they gave was only temporary… the temporary help was awesome, but i couldn’t afford to keep paying for these as i wasn’t well enough to work…. i had no choice really, but to dive in and try this work….or else be potentially bed-ridden in pain for the rest of my life…
so i dove into it, and step by step i have been stepping my way to health… each session, each part of my training, each experience in this work, more steps towards my healed self. i still remember seeing that light at the end of the tunnel of pain…i literally looked up and saw it in one process and realised that i would be free of the pain some day …..

‘wakenings’ and realisations that i’ve experienced along my way is another way of coming to this path.. ‘the lightning path’ as it can be like being struck by lightning 😉
this started occuring at a young age… gently come to realisations…ideas…explorations over time…  i liked them but didn’t think so much of them… no more than cool exercises for the mind…
i had a similar attitude to the stronger ones that occured in adult life…it was only through posting these on a blog, that someone suggested that perhaps they were more than just brain exercises..giving me the example of plato’s cave. the vividness…the experiential nature of them might have been enough for some… but as well as some life experiences, it was  when a friend gave me ‘shaman healer sage’ by alberto villoldo to read saying ‘i think you’re talking about what is in here’ and finding what i had experienced in there…and more…. and that some of this wisdom and experienced likely dated back hundreds, thousands of years that i began to entertain the ideas, experiences a little more seriously…

i’m not sure where i ought to slot in the two ‘near death’ experiences that i had into this interwoven weave, those experiences like with the wakenings, realisations, illness are also common to coming on this kind of path…..i remember the first time i had a nde, i was forceably brought back, i wanted to stay, it was so warm and welcoming. the second time, because i had experienced it that first time, i realised what was happening, and made a conscious decision to come back…and i did come back of my own accord this time… to experience what there is in this world….this life..here…. that i guess was a kind of awakening too… though again, for some reason, i consider too much on that what seemed like infinity…though it did, i feel, assist give me an extra push to enjoy the beauty in life. i did lots of awesome things after that… til i became too physically ill to do so…
that was a bit upsetting to be sure….

but. to be fair. it was the becoming too physically ill to do so, that actually got me down this training path.
again, while it could have been a much easier path to just find the training etc earlier…and i do work to assist for others to find their own path of self-healing, connecting with inner wisdom, learning self-healing practices etc earlier… for me, at that time…it just happened that it took me a case of…
either staying ill, bedbound 99% of the time or to get out there and do the training…for me to learn this path…to do the training that i did….

when i read that book, i tried one of the exercises, the chakra clearing one, and it worked so well, made me realise that anyone can do this work if they choose, its not just for just one or two gifted healers…then i tried one of alberto villoldos workshops…and i felt that feeling…that i was in a place good for me, that it felt good, felt like home to me…and felt like i had done at least once before…to follow what truly feels good for me…

so, with those heart-felt experiences and not really any choice but to do it if i wished to be able to dance, run, swim, walk more again…i saved up a whole year to do the first course of the Four Winds Society Healing the Light Body training…..then it took me 6 months for the next, then 3 months, then thanks to my gran, bless her, by the east course, i already had the money. each time i spent the money, wiping my savings out my stomach turned, and yet i was amazed that i managed it each time…when there i had to lay down most of the time on the floor, i couldn’t even sit up for long, but still i was there…and somehow managed to do the exercises and processes we were doing…

and the training….wow, what can i say….
to come to a place, where what i had thought were thought experiments to be talked about as common sense…..well i loved it…

so i worked with the training (and other trainings but particularly with the depths of that one)…and found i learnt so much from experience…with the assistance of the tools on the training… and like a seed to a tree… my health grew and it grows…

and i enjoy sharing sessions, workshops, training now…beautiful work….

after some time (probably seemed longer than it was but… 😉 i was called to teach the work.. each time i bought in the munay ki training, the more of the medicine wheel i wished to bring in…and various individuals asking me to teach them the training….
so a bit of time after first doing the training, i did it again….with added assistance of learning how to teach the work…
and coming round the training again deepened my work and the connection to the work even more…
as does sharing the training….

577307_10151888541945628_1492478127_nceremony at shambala festival

added note:
maybe i ought to note… for in my case, that as well as working at this energetic ‘healing the light body’, i also have had to work at the physical too…it was due to the energy work, and the body is energy too, but i’d like to give credit too, to the working at the level of the body as it has changed so much….
….there was a point where…thanks to the energetic work i was even able to come off my painkillers (with months of withdrawal symptoms but so worth it)…but even with improved health, also i found that something else was sticking, something wasn’t shifting..
….over some years i’d be observing the reactions to food by my body….noticing which foods increased pain etc…and experimenting bringing the foods in and out of my diet… over a number of years i gradually took out gluten, sugar, caffeine… which decreased pain levels and increase ability levels…
….this observing and experimenting, became more tailored to this as time went on…. and found the the preferred way of eating for the particular body i have is what many call ‘raw vegan’. after a lot of carrot and stick (as in my body would give me stick when i ate cooked food, and the carrot of feeling so much better when i ate the kinds of raw food it likes), i increased my rawness…improving my health so much….it became more and more worth it… i still remember that wonderful feeling of not feeling any pain for a few seconds! maybe you can feel that not…that bliss of not feeling any pain! i hadn’t experienced that in 12 or more years! so it’s worth it for me…. and actually very easy and tasty when getting used it, and once used to it…especially with organic food, and especially with homegrown food…
so working at various levels body, mind, ‘soul’ and energetic field have come together to improve my health so much…

what a journey 🙂 it is one that is getting easier, thank-fully 🙂 to learn and grow, with ease and grace is beautiful to me 😉 more and more coming to the natural flowing 🙂

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me and other rawfestees at rawfest – raw food festival – photo by Roxanne Werter, (c) rawpower

 

 

 

4 thoughts on “one healing journey…

  1. i love reading about your journey katie, you’re so open and delightful that you want to share this beauty with us. thank you sister of love and light xxx liz

    • cheers liz : ) i was just coming back to re-edit it : ) tho maybe its ok already : )
      got some notes from courses/workshops i’d like to type up and share too when i get time : )

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